organs, cellos and violins
God, The Devil and Hell
this quote over and over in my head:
"June twenty-ninth. I gotta get in shape. Too much sitting has ruined my body. Too much abuse has gone on for too long. From now on there will be 50 pushups each morning, 50 pullups. There will be no more pills, no more bad food, no more destroyers of my body. From now on will be total organization. Every muscle must be tight."
and one that compliments that quote:
"All the animals come out at night - whores, skunk pussies, buggers, queens, fairies, dopers, junkies, sick, venal. Someday a real rain will come and wash all this scum off the streets."
and this one makes me laugh and laugh:
Wizard: "I envy you, your youth. Go on, get laid, get drunk. Do anything. You got no choice, anyway. I mean, we're all fucked. More or less, ya know."
Travis Bickle: "I don't know. That's about the dumbest thing I ever heard."
thats all from Taxi Driver
anyways, I watched the Fountain and thought it wasn't made the way it should have been, but I thought it was beautiful anyhow. And I watched Indiana Jones and Last Crusade which made me want to be an adventurer more than anything else has in years. And I watched The Holy Mountain which frightened me but made me realize more than ever that God goes hand in hand with Buddhism more than it ever could with Christianity. But I don't believe in Buddhism entirely either. All these religions are merely attempts at deciphering a language we do not understand. I also watched Trip to the Moon, which is so cute. I wish space travel was really as exciting as this movie made it seem. You don't need space suits, just umbrellas to fight off monsters that lurk on the moon.
I am on the verge of something very profound. I wish I knew what it was so I could take the next step.